Saturday, June 30, 2007
Well,another week had just gone by.I'm still not adjust to school yet,waking up at 7.40am when i used to wake up at 7am.Leaving home at 8.10am when i usually leave my house at 7.55am.How fatigued can i be? Everyday??? Maybe.
I'm still searching,searching for someone,somethings,somewhere out there,but somehow i cant find the person,things and place.
The world has changed.
People living in their own world without sparing a thoughts for others.
People being evil,mocking at others,saying hurtful words.
People being self-centered.
People living mundane life.
Well.I cant find colours in my life.Aye!perheps there is,GREY-mixture of black and white.
I dont like the way how i live my life,so meaningless.
Arts night *o7 , after that 1.5hrs then i realised that i've just wasted my $9. =(
lazy to upload the rest.
"There´s a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could
Be much brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You´ll find there´s no need to cry
In this place you´ll feel
There´s no hurt or sorrow.
We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart
I feel you are all
My brothers
Create a world with
No fear
Together we cry
Happy tears"
Labels: The colour of my life is Grey.
11:24 PM
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Whats wrong with me?Huh.
These few days i'm feeling lousy and exausted,esp on Tuesday.
So for monday,tuesday and today,I came home and while doing my homework,i dozed off.
AM i that tired?
God,please i need strength.
Will be buring mid-night oil later to finish my FLASH!
AND i still have to do Csharp project. =(
Labels: I REALLY WANT., I WANT I WANT
10:28 PM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
i smell lecture notes,yucks.
How am i gonna survive for another seven-eight weeks?
god please give me the strength =)
OH MAN,Its 1am,raining heavily.I think is time for me to start on my flash. =(
I smell rain.
12:50 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
I've decided to quit netball for a moment,cause i know that i wont have the time to go for training thrice a week cause i need to study and teach tuition.There was one incident which happened on last thursday during netball trg(the day my g-granny passed away).I am indeed VERY disapointed.
Remember (wednesday june 13th post),i still remember vividly.I was anticipating for the friendly match with zenith(a netball team),after i went to TTSH hospital on thursday,i went back to school for the game tho i was not in the mood to go for it.All my aunties,uncles and cousins told me not to go,but i insisted cause i want to play.I was not able to wear red for the game while the rest wore,felt like an outcast cause i'm the only one who wore black.
By now if you are clever enough,you would have a rough idea why i was disapointed.
Make a guess.....
YES!Coach did not put me in to play,not even a single game.We palyed a total of five games,but i was not even in for ONE!Everyone had a chance but not ME. =(
YES!Coach did not put me in to play,not even a single game.We palyed a total of five games,but i was not even in for ONE!Everyone had a chance but not ME. =(
Hello coach,i know i maybe a outcast cause i'm the only one wearing BLACK,but why cant you just let me play,i make my trip down when i can choose not to even come for the training,and go back to my granddaddy's place for the funeral='( Then when training ended,the team gathered at our usual place,everyone started to warm down,there i was standing like an idiot waiting for them.Then coach asked"who cant come for the camp tomorrow?".I raised my hand,then she asked why,i walked over and i told her my g-granny just passed away today,i wont be able to turn up for the camp.NOW,then she realised,she said sorry cause she din know that.I'm also quite disapointed with my captain,cause she didnt tell my coach that the reason why i'm wearing black.(maybe there were other reasons why she did not put me to play,who knows,maybe i'm lousy.)
to fellow nypnetballers,thank you for you fun and laughter,i enjoyed training with you all,running long distances together =)Work hard for the upcoming POLITE game. =))
You people maybe think,"errrr so what, GREAT GRANDMOTHER! relationship so far, no need to care lah......"But please,i still think granny was more dear to me =) compared to granddad,maybe becasue she was motherly.I did not cry until the last day of the funeral,AND i thought i'm always emotionally strong but i'm not.When the cottage leave for bury,Wah! Tear of sadness starts to roll down my cheek,mum,aunties also cried.But i must say it was really a GRAND funeral,about 400 people was there to sent granny's last journey.I'M PROUD OF YOU AH MA =)
Reporter came and intervied us.AND OH MY GOD,i was on the'wan bao 'newspaper please!!!!!! hope no one saw it.I'm not bragging.
actually i was not allow to take photograph opss!!!!
Something unpleasant happened on last friday,my uncle quarrel because of the obituary at the wake.Childish ass. Cant you all just stop fighting over FAME,MONEY......
MONEY not = FAME.
Conclusion,my daddy is always the one get bullied.CAN all my uncles,aunties stop bullying US.SO WHAT YOU ALL HAVE MORE MONEY THEN US,who cares about BMW,MERC,BIG HOUSE!
I BELIEVE IN KARMA,and ah ma in heaven will always be there helping US only!My family.
For this seven days,i've learnt
-treasure your love ones
-be humble
-study hard,"your job is to study"(very true)
-obey
-respect
-do not be so 'action- pack'
-do not fight over small little issue
-believe in karma
-hate those who bully you
-work hard and show people tho we do not have money but we can still be the best
-do not be too 'keh kiang'
HATRED.I will remember every single my uncles and aunties for what they had said behind our back,one day they will feel sorry for what they HAD DONE.(dear family,if you chance upon reading this post,i did not mention any names BUT IF you feel guilty,for what i have post the the person refers to YOU.)
Now everything has ended,now is for me to get back to my proper timetable =)
REST my CASE.
Labels: life is precious
9:48 PM
My granny's funeral is over and now i'm totally worn out,i have lots and lots of things to blog.Staying at my granddad's place for seven days really taught me a good lesson.
I'll be back =) good night people.
12:14 AM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Fourth day of the wake at my granddad's house.I've been staying at granddaddy's place since thursday,i miss my bed.I do not enough sleep,every night sleeping at 3,4,5am ta-bo-le-tahan.I'm bored =( Thank god that i got my laptop with me, secretly watching dvds with my cousins.Opss actually we shouldnt watch cause we are not allowed(no entertainment),but i break the rule.OH NO. =(
1:31 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
great granny passed away,she died peacefully with a age of 101.
May you rest in peace,wont be blogging for a while,cause there will be a seven day wake at my granddad's place.
love you great-grand mama <3
10:52 PM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Someone nudged me,conveyed a message which i do not wish to hear or see then, ran off HAHA.
You do not have to know who,it dosent mean i dont care anymore,but i just need some time to rest my mind,thank god i'm having my break right now =)I've been wasting my time for nearly a decades and i still dont get anything.You are silly!
I'm thankful cause god sent someone like you to be my friend,i remember your words vividly =) My turn to say, dont worry!cause i will still be your friend right,fate permits,but i dont believe in that.
CHANCEs are always beside you,do you wanna grab it now or later?You decide cause i'm not at the losing end.
I'm set free,=)
till then see you everyone =)
OHYES,I dont have to camp in school for netball trg =) MY BED!HERE I COME!
once again,you answered.thank you god!
Looking forward for netball training tomorrow cause we are gonna play a friendly match.=)
Labels: Wednesday are always like that.
7:20 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
YEAH HOLIDAY,now meixuan is having her holiday. =)
TWO PATHETIC WEEKS =( haiyo,where got enough right?
week ONE
monday-
tuesday-(stay home)
wednesday-teaching tuition
thursday-netball training camp*
friday-netball training camp*/class chalet
saturday-teaching tuition
sunday-(stay home)
week TWO
-to be updated =)
*shucks!i hope i can surive through the two days camp.
Heard from them that is gonna be 'fun' I HOPE.
Imagine sleeping in school ewwweew....
Imagine going for morning run,i think it should be more than what we usually did for training...
Imagine going for dinner as a team and coming back to school to sleep,walking along the corridor of nyp around midnight.
Imagine having macdonalds' for breakfast.
Imagine sleeping in the gym,or some tutorial rooms or lecture rooms without my SUPER SINGLE BED!!!!=(
Imagine waking up as early as 7,8 or 9am.....
Imagine doing sprints around the stadium for many times....
Imagine going home late in the night (i hope not)
Imagine no television =(
Imagine going for my class chalet after the training camp,i think i will look like a zombie.Scares all my classmates away and ms tan's daughter or even lsl....
Imagine i become a RED BLACK lobster after the camp....
MAMEEE....can i dont go please....=(
2:03 AM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Is that being fair to me?
do something please.
Well,shall see,shall wait.
thanks! GOD.
12:07 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
Red carpet red carpet.I'm finally back!I know i've been missing in action,the reason behind it was due to test test test assignment assignment and more project to be done during the holiday.All starting to pile up up up.=(
Got my internet computing grades, =( sad to say i did badly i failed the recent html test with a F grade!Gonna catch up with my school work during the two weeks break.Netball training is still on tho we are having break.For the past week days,i was in a dilemma over netball,should i quit?I really like to play netball,but i cant dig out any more time for 3 training per week.shucks!
YAy gonna play netball with my netball kakis,i hope it wont rain on sunday=)
yes my 'good cum irritating friend LINCOLN KANG',please stop using my blog as sample OAKYE.ARGH#%#^%
alright,shall stop here cause i dont know how to continue......
6:04 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Today(friday,junethefirst) is definitely not my day.I'm feeling damn lousy.I'm gonna flunk my html test today,when i saw the paper i was like huh?what am i suppose to do?So i start to panic,an hour gone and i'm left with one hour which i really got no idea what and how to start.I was calling for help,praying so hard.God answered,at least i managed to do ONLY the last two part of the test,which i dont think i can pass.VERY DEMORALISED.Dragged my feet out of the lab,while others headed to PC show.
Wanted to stay in the library to study for digital electronic.Howerver,when i went into the library it was filled with students doing project,so i left.Went to TTSH hospital to visit my greatgrandmother.Doctor told us to get prepared,cause she may just leave us for another world(passed away) in a few days time.And on top of that i will be having my term test next week,how am i gonna have the mood to sit for my papers?
Had dinner with my family,then we headed down to the hospital to visit my greatgrandmother again. When my dad called her "ahma"she never answer,she was lying on the bed with her eyes closed. =(
Yes,breaking news.If anyone one of you read the 'xin ming newspaper' you will see this right?
you must be thinking why suddenly meixuan will upload something which is not very related to her post today right?haha yah true.
Yes,this car belongs to my UNCLE.And this article is not those small small gossip kind,but is the headline of the newspaper.WAH no face already lah,my uncle's car plate number will ' soon to be famous' or rather is already famous.
My uncles and aunties are all rich people okaye! but i'm living in proverty. =(
Well,okaye i'm kinda having depression.Need to rest,please pray for me okaye.
No matter what happen,i will tell myself to stay strong.
Labels: why
12:39 AM
