Thursday, February 28, 2008
So now,a week has just gone by and cousin's death is still rooted in my mind.Constantly telling myself to move on and i'm trying.Whenever i recollect on what happened last thursday night,it just tells me that life is really short/unpredictable.
Now,i'm moving on with my daily routines.Since now is my semester holiday,i should and would like to enjoy myself.Of course, i will still be giving tuition everyday and i would also like to have some time for myself,i've been using up 3/4 of my time on my students.I don't want neglect those important people around me,so i'll try my best to go for any meet up,if theres any.
So this is what i intend to do,
-tennis,netball
-driving(i will be starting my driving lesson next week,so pls pray for me cause i'm quite afraid.So dangerous!)
-holiday(anyone want to go europe with me?)
Urm,so three at the moment.
Okay i have to sleep now,have to pray cousin tomorrow.
Oh yes before i forgot,Thanks for all your concerns,i'm thankful/grateful to have you all as my friends. :)
1:07 AM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Dear Cousin Joanna/Ah Ai,It was indeed a heart-wretching moment on thursday night,seeing you lying on the bed with tubes all over you.I saw the pain that you've carried for the past years,but you had shown me that you are courageous young girl.
I would like thank you for your cousinly love that you had given me.The majong session that we had,the food that you cooked for me,the times that we went kbox together and the help that you have given me will be in my always in my mind.Don't worry,i will pray for your parents and brothers.
Hope that you will have a better life in another world.
Rest in peace.
Your cousin always,
meixuan.
Cousin joanna,"Pa,save me.I dont want to die."
You will be dearly miss by all of you cousins,
Kevin,Cynthia,Michelle
Nicole,Wendy
Josephine,Angeline,Benedict
Bryan,Vanessa
Shanen,Tiffany
Rachel,Kenedy
Ethan,Elizabeth
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Cousin Angeline:Glad i've you all with me still,dawn to me that life is really short,sudden and vulnerable.I'm sure we will all move on with fond memories and good times we had with jogal.If fate allows,i would still wanna have her and you all as my cousin in next lifetime.
(received a text from cousin angeline,the closest cousin to cousin joanna)
10:35 PM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
OKAYE!
so i see clouds and lots of diagram with big words besides it.
save me.
9:37 PM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Today 16feb08.
oh gosh!so as usual went for tuition in the afternoon and i saw someone committed suiside.This person jumped down from the 30th floor and my student's place was 15th,is doubled of it.So i saw blood stains on the floor and the undertaker came at around 3 pm and i saw the them transfering the body into the "black-van".Kinda scary!
3.23am but I just dont feel like sleeping now,studying maths really makes me awake.
3:07 AM
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Now then,i find studying FUN! :) heh, esp maths,very very i n t r e s t i n g.is always using formulas.
11:12 PM
My last post was so random,the way how i wrote that post was so horrible.But never mind,i'm not gonna delete that post.
So today is thursday.Well,i'm still preparing for my exam which is four days time.This time round the time for preparation was shorter compared to last sem,perheps it was because of cny.Everything ended,without a proper 'full-stop'and i did not really enjoyed to the fullest.So i'm anticipating for my one-an-a-half months of holiday and i'm gonna do something useful.
So you guys must be wondering,how this girl prepares for her exam right?Actually i did not really study that much cause i'm still giving tuition everyday(at least one per day)I did not cancel any of it this week tho i'm supposed to stay at home to mug.So i will just carrying the lecture notes when i'm on the bus/mrt trying to make full use of my time.Then i will start revision in the late night.Well compared to last sem,i think this semester maths is more managable than the previous semester at least i'm not that stressed up.OH BUT for f-net its much more difficult,i just have to understand and memorise the whole chunk of diagrams and words.
Alright,i think i'm on the right path/track.And i know what i want at the end of the day,so i just have to force myself to love/like what i'm doing now.And with friends setting good role model for me to follow NOT someone who teaches me something which i think is not good for my future cause I want the BEST for my future so that i wont regret. :) I have to change the perspective of my life.People,i think is really important to look far and know what is best for yourself.Do think about it okay? :)
Have FAITH. :)
oh,
happy v'day !
1:15 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
gwah! cny was more quiet this year compared to the previous one.Cause my paternal side cant celebrate new year as my great granny passed away last year.But theres a big question mark in my head now.I thought we cant go any where to bainian,but still our family went visitation.On the first day we went to my mum's father house.Oh and it was very VERY crowded.I had to go around saying happy hew year to all of them (uncles/auntied and cousins ) and collecting red packets BUT we cant give people mandrian oranges .So all my uncles,aunties and married cousins just have to stand still and i will go around collecting hongbao from them.Kinda fun :) So when my big uncle arrive then everyone was supposed to kneel down and wish my gong gong happy new year.Yes all of us,cousins,uncles and aunties did that.
Then we travelled down to angmok0 lao yee's house,where i got to eat lots of food and then sleep.AHHA :) In the afternoon,mum and I went to granddad's house for a while we talked to aunt cyndy and da gu for a while then in the evening we walked over to 2nd uncles's house for bbq and cousin wendy and I went up to the 4th story for pictures :) fun.So everything ended at around 1am in the morning.
So as usual today,went for service in the morning then after that everyone went to their sundayschool's teacher house,I went to uncle wayne's house.IT WAS FUN!!! esp the games.Thanks uncle wayne and aunty soke fung!
Well so fast,four days had just gone by.
Have a blessed week ahead!
12:35 AM
Friday, February 08, 2008
新年快乐！happy cny :)
so cny is just about,
-bak kwa s
-cans of pringles
-wang wang
-tarts
-steamboat
-love letters
-nasi brani
-roti prata
-mua chee
-cookies
too many too many :)
& talking & more talking,good way to bond.
11:08 PM
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.
:) sunday!
10:29 PM
Saturday, February 02, 2008
i'm back,yes so last week was totally crazy for me as there were tons of work to be completed.Yes,of course i did complained.The work loads that i was having but actually i should be the one to be put to blame as i did not start all my assignments and projects early.I tell you it was really no fun!!no fun!!Imagine after school i have to teach tuiton then rushed to mac to meet my grp members to do our projects.OH yes and on last thur & fri few of us were at mac either studying or working on our projects till midnight,esp on friday we were there till 3 in the morning,i was learning up the coding and typing out reports after reports.And as time was ticking i was more nervous caused it means that i have lesser time.Then on friday itself,i was like so nervous.I decided to go school early to calm myself down,so i was sitted alone beside the lift of blk L where no one was there so i was like looking out of the windows and i told myself "dont worry,dont worry "and i prayed.So when i was my turn,i stayed calm while i was explaining to my teacher time just past so fast and when the teacher said stop i was like (oh finally!)then i went out of the room feeling relief.So left the school at around 3.30pm and headed down to bedok for tuiton and then back to toapayoh for another tuiton and by the time i finish teaching it was 9.45pm and i was famished.So mum and i went kallang airport for late dinner and after finished eating my stomach start to play me out,gastric pain.I was walking with my body bent then mum thought i was slouching but actually i'm not it was jsut because i cant stand straight.So when i came home took a quick bath and plonk!i'm on my bed sleeping soundly.Then today,woke up at 8am for three tution.Friends said that i'm crazy,YES i agree! aha.
So after tution,went for youth service in the evening but before that there was a seminar and it was good.I should have asked some of my friends along :) Anyway tho i maybe weak at times but still at least i pulled it through.
And...of course,
I would like to thank people who have been constantly praying for me and caring for me.Thanks to my family, friends and GOD :)
Sorry mum and dad,i know both of you were worried as i came home at late hours as i was held up with projects and noth of them had to call me and ask what time i'm going home.
So now everything is OVER,i just have to concentrate on the final exam which is on the 18th and 21 feb.Then,i will have FUN!
AND yes,one word that i always have in my mind is
FAITH! :)
Have a blessed week ahead everyone!
10:37 PM
