Two more weeks and i have to bid farewell to my workplace then three weeks to Singapore.It wasnt easy at all,it took me so long to adapt to the environment.I was being put into a situation whereby i had to stand up and say that i'm not wrong.I'm not the normal girl anymore,i've grown up. I complained alot to my friends,family...but at the end of day i know that Lord is putting me back to test. Indeed i am thankful for having people there to encourage me and had been praying for me.

Is time for me to say goodbyes and welcoming something new into my life!


I'm half way through my IPP,about 36 more days.I really dislike working there,i fell asleep while i'm at work.On monday,i was so about to take leave,i signed the (leave form) and was about to leave at 12pm.But i promised myself i have to go to work everyday and i cannot take any MC! My head was spinning,and i really dont know what i'm doing,all the code looks like aliens to me.So i slept during my 1hr break,and my boss had to ask my colleague to wake me up.Life isnt good at all,everyday is like a war,i have to conquer it. I do not have enough sleep and i look so haggard and on top of that i'm busy with my brother's wedding which was on last sunday. Only managed to get 2hr of sleep the day before,so those eyebags starts to appear!!!

I need to take a break and breathe in some fresh air and i need to go for my run too if not i will feel so lazy.I've also loss weight,working is so stressing,then i'll hear people asking if i have sickness... :( Really hope life would be better once everything is over and i'll move on. :)
My Dad. Seriously i have no idea what is he thinking all the while. I thought i'm suppose to be happy for my brother's wedding? but i'm not.Now i have to pause and think twice before making my decision to or not to go Aussie.And i'm not looking forward to see the bill on next sunday night and the amount of people that will be there.I hope i can even find myself in the pool of people. I guess,fame is the word that is revolving around his head. And perhaps if Grandpa was around, 200 tables? Oh gosh! they're crazy.

Everything just turned out to be chaotic. I'm not very happy with what i'm facing now. Feeling so stress. But i believe God is putting me to test and through that i believe my faith would be strengthen. From the pressure at my work place,student's result and to my brother's wedding. One person to three issue and my lesiure time has all been taken by the three monstersss. Seriously i'm not looking forward to kor's wedding, and Dad always likes to create more problems by inviting more and more people form 800 to 1000,he thinks is his wedding,so silly and then i'll be the one clearing up the mess ended up i'm the one losing. My sister is still the best,enjoying her time in Moscow.Gosh! what is happening man!?

Well,all i could do is to hang on there and look at the brighter side :) and say "i love my life now!"

I really dread going to work. I thought that working at CDC would be fun but it turned out to be so terrible.My boss doesnt know anything at all cause his computing language is not the same as ours,he has to depend on all of us and all 3 of my colleagues dont know c# only one guy but when he explained to me i dont really understand. Frankly speaking,i'm not a good programmer and i dont know why the school posted me there when the paper states clearly that they want people who are specialize in programming. On the first day of work,i've told my boss that i'm in logistics and i think he is very disappointed with the school. Those programming that i'm working on are informations of the learners and statistics. I'm really very disappointed with my teacher,and i'm going to feedback to them.I guess i have to hang on,i really dont wish to fail my IPP. :(

Alright,went to the Comex today and i wanted to grab the Canon DSLR ,IPod and Mac book back home.I tried on the camera & was so close to say ok "i'll buy this DSLR". Mum said that if i like i buy,i kept on telling myself cannot cannot cause i'll need plenty plenty plenty of moneyyy for my education, Beijing trip and Mac notebook. Mentioning about education,i've yet to check out all the Uni,i really don't have the time even my running time has all been taken up by work, tuition and other stuff :( and they(family) kept on bugging me to decide what i want to study. Oh gosh! Scary,i guess i'm still not prepared to leave yet. :(

Well,i'll still look upon God and committing all my worries and decisions into his hands.

Two more weeks and i have to bid farewell to my workplace then three weeks to Singapore.It wasnt easy at all,it took me so long to adapt to the environment.I was being put into a situation whereby i had to stand up and say that i'm not wrong.I'm not the normal girl anymore,i've grown up. I complained alot to my friends,family...but at the end of day i know that Lord is putting me back to test. Indeed i am thankful for having people there to encourage me and had been praying for me.

Is time for me to say goodbyes and welcoming something new into my life!